100 days in pursuing happiness

I'm gonna start this new project today, right now. its my answer to this call: http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifestyle/60-small-ways-to-improve-your-life-in-the-next-100-days.html#

Pray, and pray hard.

Listen, broken hearts.

When your heart is broken and you know you cant be with that person but it's so damn hard to forget him/her...some people say, go meet up some friends, do something that keeps your mind off that person. To me, that might work temporarily. To make sure you can live without him, you should stay alone. Ground yourself at home for a period of time. If you really need to go out, go alone... and sometimes keeping it to yourself helps. As for me, I turn to God. Pray and cry to God. Don't ask God for what you want. Instead ask for the best. Believe me, at times like these, only God understands you and only Him listens..You don't have to talk that much. Yes, look can be deceiving, so can words. So you expect your friends to understand you? No they don't and it's not their fault. But with God, just pray for forgiveness wholeheartedly, think through your sadness, He'll certainly understand. Don't stop praying even when you think He has answered your call because that might just be a hurdle in the middle of the road to test you. Instead, keep praying for the best.

Am I capable of adopting a child?

I am currently babysitting my 4 years old nephew whom acts more like a 2 year old, like he's not ready to have a baby brother/sister, which in fact, he already has 1 baby sister and another baby coming in 8 months.

For that, his mother is not feeling well and can't afford to entertain his whining and yearning for the moment, so here he is, in my room talking (or more like mumbling) to himself, playing with my stuffs, pulling my curtains and comforter.

OK, one of my long-term target in life was, if i'm not married by 27, i'll be considering adopting a child by 30. I was expecting a well-mannered child, whom listen to instructions, always smile and make my day, and only cries when he/she gets hurt.

But looking at this child, my nephew, kicking my back while i'm writing this really got me thinking, am I for real...Can I possibly get a well-mannered child to adopt? OR...Maybe I should ask, can I possibly raise a child to be at his best manner?

Wake up call to every man out there.

FOCUS - Tropfest 2011 Finalist

Tell her she's wonderful

She was a good girl. Naive, fragile, delicate. Life turns her into someone entirely different. 

After all these years you have taught her to be strong. Don't blame her for having no heart. 

You've grown her to become very firm, heartless. She could cry but not for herself. 

She gave up everything that nothing left matters. 

God, give her a soul, a wonderful heart, and unconditional love. 

God, bless her with your love, for whom she used to be. 

God, forgive her, for whom she used to be. 

God, grant her the life she deserved, for whom she used to be. 

God, show her the right path, just for whom she used to be.

Heartbroken

Heartbroken,

When people you love are still around but with no hope,

Holding on to what is left,

Waking up in the morning thinking, does going to work today worth it…

or are you just gonna lose everything tomorrow.

Possessions lost, loved ones vanished..

you are strong, truly amazing for not giving up.

Tribute to Japan, one could only imagine what you are going through.

Significant #2

Writing about you is the last thing i wanna do

Things turned upside down especially for you

Today, I would say I understand if you disappear from my sight one day

But tomorrow, i would say something different

I don't know if you are real

but i know you could save me

Your presence makes me realize that i'm in my right mind

Let's face the truth

You need someone to ease the pain

I need someone to lessen the wretchedness

As time goes by, we move on,

We are no more significant to one another

We'll part without any word

For that, these moments..

I want to take the pleasure in

I want to celebrate

I want to adore

I want to luxuriate

I want to love

I wish all the good things for you

I wish things will take positive turn for both of us

Thank you for being there for me

I Like it This Way

1.  When I comb my hair I put extra pressure when the comb reaches the back of my head.
2. I count using all of my fingers. Yeah, 20 in total.
3.  Not having a remote, I change the channel with my toe.
4.  I sleep with open windows closed curtain
5. When I eat, I save the best part last
6. I see lines moving down when I close my eyes.
7. I flush the toilet with my toe

Breathe

People just don't get everything they want.

And when by you getting the one thing you really want would only cause trouble for others and would break the significant's heart, you'll just go without that something.

I wonder why is it so hard for me when it was my own decision putting myself into this predicament.

A mistake leads to another. But i never regret it. so at least i know i'm still living.

I was loved,cared, and cured by YOU in very little time.

And when being with that someone is impossible, you could only hope for the best for that person...

You hope to see that person achieve what he wants in life, to see the smile on that face again,

and most importantly, to see him breathe again.

How am I doin?

You only know how much a person worth when you lost him/her.
Choose your path right, make decision with your mind+heart, not only with either one.
Otherwise you'll end up breakin someone's heart.
When you know you're on the right path, appreciate the people around you, be sensitive.
Its ok to give up a little something that important to you, to show them how much they mean to you.
cuz you wouldnt know how much they'd appreciate that.

Who made you the king of anything?

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see

You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

~there i said it! and i meant every word

You asked what my dreams are,

This is one of them..

If I have all the will and strength,

I wanna wait for everything to resolve here, 

and you'll wait for that too without questions..

Then we'll both get away from here to where no one knows us.

We'll have OUR time together,

Build our life from scratch,

and if things don't work out, 

we'll come back here alone pretend like nothing happened.

Thank YOU

It could be the most difficult, bewildering phase of my life, but its also the happiest ever moment. So i just keep smiling.

How i wish i knew how much i was being loved.

Thank YOU

If I Die Young-The Band Perry

Im in love with this song! :D thanx natalielovesyou4!

A story of appreciation.

I am blessed to have known such wonderful people that have affected me in many ways, directly or indirectly. They made me realize how I should have been grateful and believing myself. I am not wasting another minute blaming someone else for my blunders. I am going to learn from them. I wanna meet more people. I wanna find the qualities in them, because any of them would be the person whom will leave an impact to my life next. Am going to make a meaningful plot to go with the magnificent casts in the story of my life.

P/s: I now understand the words of my SIGNIFICANT1: a true friendship is when both parties know the other person is always there when in need, although they do not spend much time together. So friends do not necessarily meet up every chance they have. They just make the most of every meeting.

im stumbling.do u?

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Boyz II Men - Pass You By

Thanx to a friend, Khaliesa for sharing this song on fb. Listen to the lyrics girls. I just think it relates to many of us, if not urself, maybe ur girls or sisters or whoever around u. Those kind of love makes them feel complete but the truth is its not even LOVE. and my favorite part of the song is "don't have to stay with some1 that makes u cry, u'll end up killing all the love u have inside"...omg it is so true! i got a friend whom has sacrificed a lot, i mean A LOT for her boyfriend but he is just like using her. but still she loves him so very much that she thinks his life is so miserable and she needs to deal with his emotions, and help him out FINANCIALLY(i hate it)..and she's spending less time with others, more time on wondering if she's doin enough for him! ok yes am i gettin so emotional right now..but i just think it really is happening today around u. u might not realize it though, or even worse u could see it but you just couldn't do anythin about it. so girls, choose ur love wisely.

2011 Must-Do list

I’ve seen bloggers do this sort of to-do checklist. And I liked it. I think it shall help me too, InsyaAllah so I’m putting up my must do list too for 2011.

Change is Good

I would like to share this video my dad forwarded to me. very inspirational one.

The Change Is Good Movie | Change is Good... You Go First

I wish everyone and myself a very Happy 2011.

let's cure the heartache, let's live our life and find what it's worth, and let's make tomorrow better than today.